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Name: Erik
Birthday: 7/20/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: God rocks first of all. I love movies, all kinds of music as long as its either christian or a secular band that doesn't have bad lyrics, i also am a christian and proud of it....in the midst of maturing in that area as well. I also love children and working at camp.
Expertise: Im a critic...not always good at it....but i have opinions and i share them. I also think i have an ear for music....I play piano, bass, and i love to sing.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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Member Since:
1/8/2004
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| Wow am i cliche or what? i am sitting in a coffe house, drinking the coffe of the day, BLACK,.....i am unshowered for three days now, have my side sachel/man purse....chuck taylors on the feet....and to top it all off, i am writing this weblog on my apple laptop with the little glowing apple on the other side of the computer.
but eh? does it matter? whateva
anyway....life is decent at the moment, all i am really up to is school. We have three weeks left in the semester and im pretty sure im looking at two C's, an A, and a B which really sucks because that means i wont keep the HOPE scholarship after this semester....two things to say about that though....it is possible to raise one of those C's to a B so i will work at that, in fact i just finished a test in that class and i think i did very well on the test....and the second thing i have to say is....ive kept a fully covered tuition scholarship for three years and thats AWESOME. so if i lose it, yes it would suck financially becuase its money i could eventually use for Seminary and living basically, but it still is pretty cool ive kept a B average for so long.
anyway. dont like thinking about that stuff anyway because it puts so much weight on every test i take,,,,, "this test could determine if i spend 4,000 dollars this next year...so i choose to just try my hardest and whatever the outcome, ill just adjust.
Relationship wise, i basically just miss Jennifer, we spent this amazing time together on spring break and then after spring break we have both been so busy we havent been able to spend much time together at all and its really sad. I love spending actual GOOD time with her instead of just "hangin out"....i want to go have fun with her again. two weeks is too long between fun with her. but i suppose all of that is a "Good" problem....so for all those non-relationship readers of mine, ill shut up now...sorry. :)
Roomate stuff.
well we are all doing well, just reorganized the house the other day so that Chris' band can practice there this summer, and my speakers are being sufficiently used which is fun to see how powerful those things are. I told them that the second it becomes irratating and inconvenient for them to practice there is the second they have to find a new place. But i have a few quiet places to go if i ever just need to get away from the house.
Chris and I have been doing this accountability thing this last couple weeks where we meet and we have to talk about our spiritual lives...so its really good. Stressful sometimes because you know, you have to talk about it, you dont have a choice....so its a good way to stay real.
We are starting this Cell group thing on sunday mornings....probably start at the beginning of the summer, and hopefully continue after that....pretty much every sunday a different person will lead a discussion on whatever and then afterwards we'll either split for lunch or cookout or whatever. the best thing is that there is so much support for this idea so we are all really excited about it....it just needs to start.
I would love some prayer though for some things; my life is hitting all these turning points and i would really love some direction from God and He pretty much just keep saying. "Wait!"...........i need patience....
thanks for reading....comment....love all of you.
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well i am writing another entry now to appease some people that have told me that actually read this blog but NEVER comment :)
anyway....what has been going on lately for me
school and job wise....well school as usual is kicking my butt and i am having trouble finishing up my final year here at college....my motivation is pretty much gone ever since God called me to seminary....i know a psych and writing degree will help me throughout life....but i have very little motivation to actually finish my degree just so i can say i have a degree. but i will finish it nonetheless just so i dont feel like a failure
job....well papa johns just went corporate so now instead of getting $1.25 for every delivery i take....ill only be getting eighty cents....so i quit and am now searching for a job....so i am low on money...which means its time to sell something....so i will probably sell my weighted keyboard...so if anyone knows of someone that wants a weighted 88 key Kord Sp-100 for around 500 bucks...let me know
anyway....
Spritually, i have been struggling lately....i just finished such an excited Spring Break and now that i am back i dont really have a lot of motivation to actually work at my relationship with Christ.
beyond that, i lead worship at a church here in town and this coming up sunday is my last sunday there....it is going to be kinda hard to maintain my life with Christ....not that i depend on church and what not for that, but it does help ya know?
i would really love to start my own "Church" group that meets on sundays....like maybe sunday afternoons have a regular bible study. i just need to find like four or five other people that would interested in attending something like that, so that i am not just wasting my time outside of church. I just kind of feel like i am going to all these ministrys and what not now to satisfy the norm...and its almost become a obligation for me and i would love to get back in touch with what i really want.....GOD!!!
i want my passion back....i want my need back.....my roomate is also discontinueing his attendance to this church and he was telling me that he wants to be able to wake up on sunday morning and WANT to go to church instead of having to because its a job "leading worship" sometimes.....
so i want to do that really badly....i just need support here in town,.....just a few people that want what i want and are willing to spend a few hours EVERY sunday to talk about God....a TRUE REAL CELL GROUP that grows upon itself.
so if you have read this far, please be praying for my diligence on this becuase i really do feel it would help me much more than an actual church setting right now.
i always get more out my quiet time with God then in a Church setting, so i would love to change my idea of church now in my life, and i think this is what i need to change my idea of consistency.
new subject,
Jennifer and I are doing wonderful, like i said we just spend a lovely week of vacationing and sight seeing in New York and Washington DC....we saw pretty much everything and it was so awesome to spend the whole week with her. I love that girl!
anyway....i miss xanga....and i hope my xangers miss me too, ill try to write more....promise.
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| it is about 1:41am in the morning and i just finished a wonderful conversation with my roomate in which i realized a lot of things about my life...so first...background
I have had quite the difficult past couple weeks in that i have felt very left out of things, friends dont call, people dont ask me to hang out....it always seems to be the other way around. It has hurt immensly for quite some time, and really this is something i have struggled with since i was knee high to a grasshopper.
Honestly my comfort has not been placed where it should be. i put people up on petastools and expect so much out of them, when really i am no different. How many people to i call a day to see how their days are going, how many people do i show up out of the blue to hang out, and to let them know i was thinking about them.
how often do we as christians actually do that? you know, as the body of Christ, we are told that the foot cannot live without the eye, and vice versa....but how many different meanings does that have?
i think it goes beyond the whole idea of its ok to be yourself because God loves you just the way you are and only wants more of you........I believe that we are a BODY so that we realize how important those that are around us.
We are supposed to encourage one another...constantly....how hard is it really to do that? how long does it take to leave a message with someone, or write them a little note?
I have recently taken up a new form of Love with Christians.....MEAL TIME!!! you are going to eat anyway...why not take the extra 45 minutes of your life and eat with someone you dont spend a lot of time with and talk about your spiritual lives.
God calls us to a life of realizations, and revalations with him right? well how better to get that than to show his love more and more and more and more and more.....
I say all this to not only encourage but to show what God has taught me a lot recently.
It is not that i am getting tired of initiating, is that i am tired of not seeing the blessing....but it isnt my job to see the blessing.....the fruit if you will.
Jesus/God is the only religion based on servantly.....all other religions base their beliefs on someone that was either sent by God or is God....and that person is worshipped.....or highly remarked...more so than God himself. Jesus however....THE ONE THAT MADE THE FLIPPIN UNIVERSE....came to this earth as a
SERVANT...
we are called to be like Jesus....we are called to serve others....NONSTOP people!!! it is not a matter of we get fruit from it....only if God is glorified.
So i challenge all of you that read this....serve someone today....realize someone that needs your love and give it freely.
God is Love....lets, as christians, start really supporting each other to glorify God.
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| Well, we are like four weeks into the new year and sure enough i have been way to busy to write anything in here....even now i am writing a disclaimer to show my past readers, present readers, and hopefully future readers....That i, Erik, do plan on starting the whole online journaling thing again....hopefully with just as much if not more pissaz when i previously wrote on a regular basis.
i am looking foward to such an event but unfortunately at the moment i have a couple hundred pages to read before my 3:30 class (aka in four hours) so i must reach my pinnacle of education and use my immence (NOT) reading skills to conquer such a task as to not flunk out and lose my life and die!
anyway. Thank you for all your encouragement and i will begin shortly...hold me accountable...give me a week mmmk? love and kisses to all...even you Gabe...hehe.
His, and yours,
Erik | | |
| not to tease or anything...but i plan to start actually writing in this in january...so PLEASE....if you support this decision...comment and encourage! | | |
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